Note: This post is really more for me then anything else. I put my blog into books, and I wanted to have my thoughts on this subject today, in my book. So I won't be offended if you don't read this awfully long post. But do enjoy the pretty flowers! They have all come from some of my wonderful friends and family and I love them.My mom has always said this really annoying phrase that supposedly her mom always said as well. And although it's true. It doesn't always seem as though that certain something will ever pass. {Which is the annoying part.} LOL
Talking on the phone with my Aunt the other night, I realized that those certain something's always do pass. We move on and a new challenge will present itself in our lives yet again. And eventually it will pass. And so the saga goes. I have definitely had my challenges in the last 3 months. My body for whatever reason decided to cause me much grief. At least that's what it feels like. It has truly been one thing after another. For so many weeks the doctors, radiologists, pathologists, lab techs, etc. etc. etc. poked, prodded, searched, and searched for a cause to my pain, with no results.
Then the poking and prodding turned into surgeries. Looking for one thing but found something we weren't expecting. Surely that was the cause of all my pain. Only for me to feel let down by my body a week later, when it obviously wasn't. So more surgery to remove an organ that is useful but we can live without. Not even really knowing if it was the cause of my pain. I felt all along that it was. And yet 2 weeks later and we're still not sure if my body is wanting to play nice. ;o)
As far as the surgeries go. I finally felt in the last couple of days that my body is healing and I'm not feeling as much, all the aches and pains that go along with having 7 incisions in my abdomen. I definitely know I've had 2 surgeries if I cough or sneeze or bend the wrong way. But it's much, much better than a week ago. 
So another "challenge" came and it passed. And now I move on to the next challenge. I hope this one is short lived.Did removing my gallbladder "cure" me? And are the issues I'm having now, which I briefly discussed in THIS post, come from surgery and pain meds? Are the pains I'm having post surgery or the same I had at the beginning of this story? Are we dealing with something else entirely? Or am I still not "fixed"?
I still am amazed that 3 months have passed me by. It seems like a dream in some ways, and a nightmare in others.
I have good moments and bad moments. Tuesday afternoon was a really good afternoon. I kept pinching myself to see if indeed I was dreaming. It was probably the best I've felt in a really long time. Wednesday wasn't as good, but not bad either. Thursday wasn't good at all. And starting about 1 a.m. in the morning Friday until about 9:30 a.m. it was HORRIBLE. Yesterday wasn't too bad but I was very, very tired all day. I had to take 2 naps. And truly I am sick of naps. Especially on such a beautiful day as yesterday. (oh gosh it was a gorgeous day!). But I must count my blessings because last weekend was probably the worst weekend I've had. And I am very thankful it wasn't like that again this weekend.
I do try and count my blessings every day. I realize that there are others suffering so much more then what I have endured. My heart goes out to them.And I count my blessings again. And.... that thought pops into my mind. This too shall pass.... {I just hope it's really soon}.
Oh! and p.s. The SUN is SHINING again today! It's amazing and beautiful and wonderful!
49 comments:
Of course, I read every word of your blog today. Just writing about our days is cleansing...if not our bodies...then our minds...of all the things that hurt. Yes, I'm sure this too will pass...sooner than later. Thoughts to you...get well soon!
I am truly sorry for all of your pain and suffering....even tho we know in our head that this too will pass, it does not make it any easier to pass through it.
My you have been through alot.
I hope your pain and suffering will pass soon. Here's to a speedy recovery.
Jodi, I know we don't know each other, but I have been following your blog for a few months, and for some odd reason this morning, you crossed my mind while we were driving home from church...I just felt like maybe I could pray for you....so I did...and I will....thanks for sharing your heart!
Yes, thanks for sharing from your heart (and all the lovely flower pictures). It is a glorious day and hopefully your pain and suffering will soon be a thing of the past.
Bloggers stick together...just like good and bad hair days we all have those days when we just need to add alittle whine to our cheesy world...feel better soon...
Beautiful flowers and beautiful ... true ... insights. Believe me.
~ Mary ~
I have you in my prayers! My husband had his gall bladder removed 3 weeks ago. He thought he should be feeling better, and generally he does. Today, is a nap day though as he is not feeling well. I love the title of your post today, by the way.
I did read all the way...and know that prayers are being said for you. I hope God heals you and that the Drs. have wisdom to make you feel better. Sometime share with us how you make a blog into a book. I have thought how I would like that for my blog...which is more like my personal journal with photos. God bless you today and always.
I have read every word of your post, and enjoyed the flowers while strolling by, thank you. I only hope that these flowers have cheered you also, as you have had some trying times. Hang in there, .... and keep on reading 'cos you have passed on some really great reads!!!
You are so sweet...looking for the good and seeing it. It sounds awful what you have been going through..the not knowing is the worst. I hope and pray that it will get better...and that it does pass! Come say hi :D
I was REALLY hoping having your gall bladder out would be the beginning of all healing. So sorry to hear things aren't better. Know you continue in my prayers.
I do so hope you feel better soon.
I really hope for healing and renewed strength to come your way..(((hugs)))
I am areading and loving your posts. I hope whatever is ailing you ends soon and you are up and around quickly. but take it easy too.
I've been reading for awhile now, too, but not sure I've ever commented (unless it was for a giveaway...maybe so). I really hope you'll feel better after all you've been through. I, too, was going to ask about making your blog into a book. I am VERY interested! I have a typepad blog and seems I remember an email coming in from them saying something about this very idea, but I have a feeling it could be very cost-prohibitive. I'd love to know how you're going about it. Thanks so much.
although we don't know one another, I think about you many times throughout my day even when I'm not looking at your blog LOL. I am praying you get back to your normal self real soon. I admire your spirit through this time!
Enjoyed seeing all your flowers :)
Jodi sometimes it is so hard understanding ourselves and who and what we are isn't it? Things happen and we always as humans seem to want to know why-another saying "Everything happens for a reason". Well maybe it does and maybe, just maybe, things happen because they happen. I so understand the questioning and like you I will always want a reason if I can. I hope you are starting to feel brighter and your body is starting to become more peaceful for you again soon.
I am sure things will pass .....
Tried and true sayings are not necessarily comforting when you are in the middle of "this" !! I hope your body heals and no more extreme measures will present themselves. You do have to watch out for adhesions and infection, of course, after having surgery of any kind...
I had my gallbladder out 19 years ago and haven't missed it!
Wanna hear something funny? I found your blog while recovering from gallbladder surgery myself. Just 4 days ago I had mine removed, and I'm hoping that it's the cause of all my pain. Hope that you find the relief that you're looking for.
I am sorry you are still feeling under they weather. Look at it this way, God gave you a couple of good days-in your pain and the weather.
Live one day at a time.
prays going your way!
I really enjoy your blog.!!
I had my gallbladder out during my gastric bypass in 2007. For weeks I had to take an afternoon nap to get through the day. It was very tiring for me. Now I've got brain surgery coming up this Friday and am praying that I feel as well as I did after the bypass and gallbladder! Although at that time, I thought I'd be forever tired. But like you say... this too shall pass. I will keep that in mind this week. Take care!
Jodi, honey, we are pulling for all this to pass quickly for you. I can only imagine how lousy your body feels andthen how it can wreck your emotions. Arrgh. Hang in there and maybe it's time to do a stitchery of some sort of that saying.
Hugs!
I read your blog each time you post, and just love it!
I am sorry you are going through so much pain and I am praying for you to feel pain free and better soon! Remember, it does take time to heal. God does not give you more than you can handle. And don't worry about writing about yourself, it is helpful to write things down and get it out of your head! Sending you my prayers and hugs!
Oh Jodi, I have a condition related to menopause that I've had for five years. Chronic and pretty continuous. Sure, there's someone else in more pain than what we're in. But pain is relative. It's OUR pain. Surely this must be over for you soon. I hate to see you going into spring with this still lingering on and no definitive results. Hugs to you. And the polka dotted plates came from Pier 1. I was in mine about a week ago and they still had them, though I've had mine since last fall.
Brenda
Dear Jodie
I am so sorry you have had so much pain and suffering over these last few months.it must be very discouraging. I will be praying for you.
hugs, Rhondi
You are handling all this with such a great outlook. I hope you are truly on the mend and feel back to yourself soon!!! xo
Thank you for sharing so personally with me. Even as you speak of your trials and challenges, your hope, faith and strength comes through as you note the beautiful weather and include the floral photos! I know a bit of what you are going through since I also struggled for a diagnosis to abdominal pain. Abdominal issues are so very difficult to diagnose, particularly for women. There's just so much going on there!!!! Love and prayers.
Jodi, I'm sorry for your pain and grief at losing good health. In my experience (I have MS) I have found it better to blame something other than my body for the problem. Ex infection, bug, etc. That way my body and I are a team, not fighting each other. And I find I'm less angry and appreciate the "battle" my body is doing. Hope that helps you a little bit. Meanwhile, praying for fast recovery for you.
My heart certainly goes out to you. As a person with chronic digestive issues (and a few surgeries to go along with that) I know how frustrating, tiring, painful and downright annoying it is. Some days you just wish it would all go away already. I, too, had my gall bladder out 10 yrs ago. Just 3 1/2 yrs ago I found out (through a pretty major surgery) that I also have Crohn's disease (in addition to IBS). It's not fun and I feel your pain. But it does get better. I certainly hope you are on the road to recovery!
Luv Ya, girl! You keep getting better. May the sun shine in your life for years to come!
Hope the flowers bring you cheer and the doctors restore you to good health again soon!
Oh Lil' Jodi -- I sure hope this is the end of it! Here's to a better week ahead -- and thanks for sharing your beautiful flowers with us!
I'm praying for your good health! Hopefully this is your body's way of healing and you'll be over the worst of it soon.
The flowers are beautiful!
OH, all the flowers are lovely. How very nice of your friends and family.
I hope it all passes very quickly for you. I am so sorry you are going through all this.
I hope this ends up to be what you need to get better. Keep taking your naps. That's natures way of saying you need to rest. And usually after surgery it takes awhile to get all the drugs out of your system. I'm sending you get well {{HUGS}}!!
sorry that you feel like crap...
*hug*
shannon
You have such a great, strong attitude. I will say prayers for you that you can begin to mend and finally feel better!
Thank you for the beautiful flowers! I hope you are feeling better very soon.
I can only imagine what you're going through. Hope you heal quickly and feel much better very soon! Sending lots of hugs your way! :0)
Gee, I really do hope all this passes soon.
Thinking of you.
I, too, hope this will all pass SOON for you. I can understand how discouraged you'd be now. Let's hope the good days become more and more frequent and soon this is all a distant memory. Your flower photos are lovely...thanks for sharing them.
Jodi, I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this. I think the "not-knowing-what-the-cause-is" is the worst part. Or the "when will this ever end?"
Hang in there. I'll keep you in my prayers. And I'm hoping it'll pass sooner rather than later.
I hope you feel better soon.
Certainly Your Sun is shinning tomorrow again!
I truly hope that you feel better soon and know that your words inspired me. We are in a situation (non-health) that I too hope passes soon ~ and your words reminded me that everything does pass ~ even an economic recession. Thank you for the inspiration and be well.
Hi Jodi,
I hope your health will improve soon, it's no fun not knowing what is going on and feeling bad all the time. I loved seeing all your pretty flowers and ....... I made your Snickerdoodle cupcakes, they are wonderful, I expected them to be a little more dense with the sour cream, but they were light and yummy. I used a large slotted spoon to roll them in the sugar and it worked great, thanks Jodi.
Hang in there. I know someone who recently went through this same thing and it took her a while before she started feeling like her old self after the surgery. God be with you!!
yes, but you are pooping right?
see how awesome things are starting to get?
kidding.
i LOVED with a capital L-O-V-E-D that we got to talk on the phone last week. i've missed you sooo much! and it pains me to think how far we really are! the worst part is that i've been eating ice cream for the two of us without you being here or me being there.
oh well.
we'll talk soon again dear friend! love ya! -V
Ánimo!! espero que todo pase pronto...
Un beso,
Cristina, España
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